breathe

Overflowing is my heart as I lay there standing in a bemused trans

Listening to the consistent rhythm of every breathe

Of every unperturbed breathe that he whispers out

My body’s innate rhythm quickens with no melody

Louder and louder

Each beat thudding in my ear because my heart has no control

I fear what’s transpiring

But cannot resist enough to stopi9

I know what’s going on

Love pretending that’s its part of the standard

Standards

Of which he surpasses by far

I suffer from something easing down my back

And tightening at the waist

I can’t breathe I close my body into him

And it tightens more

I rest my eyelids and try to remember how to breathe

But I can’t

Once I put into practice what I reminisce

His aroma stops my heart freezes me in place

I forget how to exhale

It captivates me holds me prisoner

I have the key at hand

But I never take a step towards the lock

Holding myself prisoner and the warden has no suspicion I’m

In his facility

I look up and exhale

I nuzzle my head into the aches that God has made

And feel warmth that I have never felt

His embrace captivates me

Makes me happy

I love him uncontrollably.. and its ok